Taking Stock

Wow, I can't believe its been 3 weeks since my last posting! Been doing this, that, this, that, excuses, excuses, excuses! I am sure you know exactly what I am saying, cause I bet almost everyone is busy with something :)

Three days ago on 3rd December, I celebrated my 36th birthday. On a short flight back from Sandakan to Kota Kinabalu that same morning after an assignment, I tried to gather my thoughts on what has happened in the past year, and the many, many years I have lived on this planet with six-and-a-half-billion others. I've had my ups and downs in the past year, some which have left me questioning myself, others which have made me a stronger person.

But there is one thing I have decided on, and which I hope I will stick to: I want to be a better person. By better person, I mean I want to be a better friend, daughter, sister and hopefully citizen. I have to stop getting "angry" and "irritated" at the slightest things, and look at things through a different scope. I have to understand that not everyone will live up to my expectations. Motorists will still drive at 50km per hour on the right lane when I use Tuaran Road to get to work, people won't say thank you, people will tell lies, a friend I was once very close to has her own life now, most flights will have turbulence whether I like it or not, Malaysian public toilets will remain dirty, broadband connection sucks, etc. So instead of getting annoyed at everything, I will let it be. I will take a deep breath and move on. And live for today. Tomorrow is another day, there is no reason to start getting worried about what tomorrow will bring. Its time to be fair to myself.

There are many things I am thankful for. I am not hungry, I don't live in a shack, I have water and electricity supply, a nice car, enough clothes, a chance to travel and a number of awards on my shelf (well, actually they are still in the store room :D). But above all, I have friends and family who have never stopped supporting me. Dad who never fails to tell me how proud he is of me and my siblings, a friend who always gives me a hug each time we meet (its you Zan!), a soul mate who knows when to leave me alone, and when to make me smile.

And as I take stock of life, I hope God blesses you the way I have been blessed :)