Doing What's Right

After much thought, I finally sent in my resignation letter. It was short - I thanked the New Straits Times for the opportunities it has given to me in the more than 12 years I have been with the company. And that was about it. I dont even have a copy. I printed it and sent it off to Kuala Lumpur, with a copy to my boss in KK.

People are asking me why... why this and why that? I dont have answers. I just know that I want to do something new. I am 36, and ready to explore a new chapter. I am not too young, not too old. I only have one life, and I want to live it. I've given the best years of my life to my work. I have done my best at work, and I can hold my head up high as I leave through that door, one last time, next month.

Keeping The Faith

The New Year and second decade sure started with a bang for Malaysia. Some are saying there is legislation in some states that non-Muslims cannot use "the word" so I will not use "the you-know-which-word-i-am-talking about" word here.

After almost three weeks of debate in the mainstream media and social networks, I have come to some conclusions:

1. The matter has been politicised.

2. I am not surprised I am thinking of migrating.

3. The Government needs to make its stand clear, and stop flip-flopping on things it is saying. There is no use for 1Malaysia if we can't sort this out.

4. I now have to erase a whole list of words from my vocabulary, because according to Malacca, Selangor and Pahang, these words too can't be used. But then again, I am in Sabah, so maybe I cant continue to use them.

5. I would rather see my leaders working hard to figure out how to really get rid of poverty, improve power supply without a coal plant (since we have the intelligence, i hope), reduce corruption levels, churn out more doctors cause we just dont have enough at government hospitals, and focus on coming up with an education system that recognises some children are good in some fields, and others excel in other areas.

Yes, Coal Fires Me Up

Those who know me will tell you that there is one issue that really riles me up - and that is the federal government's plan to build a coal-fired power plant in eastern Sabah, not too far from where the first rays of the sun hit Borneo island every morning. I wrote this commentary, published in the New Straits Times on 28th December, 2009.

All Fired Up Over Coal Power Plant

IT is never easy to draw the line between development needs and conservation of natural resources that are becoming more scarce by the minute. And nowhere else in Malaysia is this more clear than in Sabah, a Bornean state known not only for its gas, petroleum and timber but also for some of the last remaining pristine rainforests, endemic wildlife and an amazing array of fish and corals.

As Sabah moves forward to improve critical infrastructure like airports, roads and schools, and strives to reduce poverty by bridging regional divide, its leaders also face a dilemma when it comes to striking a balance between development and the ever increasing global urgency to protect the environment.

For the last three months, a proposal to build a 300-megawatt coal-fired power plant at Felda Sahabat in Lahad Datu has arguably become the most widely debated issue in Sabah-based dailies, social networks like Facebook and in blogs.

At a recent media retreat, Sabah Electricity Sdn Bhd (SESB) was firm in its argument that a coal-fired plant is the only viable solution for the east coast region that is suffering from constant power outages, although the East-West power grid was commissioned not too long ago "to solve power woes on the east coast".

At the same event, the utility company made its case by saying hydro, solar and biomass-sourced power would not be able to produce the same volume without excessive costs in the short term.

The plant, estimated to cost RM1.7 billion, a hike of a staggering RM400 million compared with the figure given two years ago when the proposal was first made, will import 1.22 million tonnes of coal a year from Kalimantan in Indonesia.

The coal will be transported in 10,000-tonne barges through the Sulawesi and Sulu seas, that form part of a marine eco-region that a recent Malaysian government-funded expedition discovered to have "many untapped resources and new marine species that could help create spin-offs".

The announcement in September by Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Razak caught many by surprise as the Sabah government had on April 2 last year told SESB and Tenaga Nasional Berhad to look for alternative sources of energy.

Chief Minister Datuk Seri Musa Aman was at that time quoted as saying that after weighing the pros and cons, the government had decided to do away with the proposal and not to risk the health and welfare of the communities in the Lahad Datu area.

While a handful of Sabah leaders changed their tune in support of the plant, they might have an uphill task answering how power generated from coal is in line with Malaysia's commitments to the world.

The latest is the pledge at the United Nations Climate Change Conference to cut Malaysia's carbon emissions by 40 per cent compared with 2005 levels, which was applauded by foreign diplomats.

Malaysia, through waters off Sabah's east coast which will be affected by the plant, is part of the Coral Triangle Initiative that is home to 76 per cent of all known coral species and 37 per cent of coral reef fish species, turning it into an important zone for food security.

Locally, Sabah is gaining its footing as a focal point for sustainably-managed forests, carbon offset projects, wildlife and habitat conservation to which some international donors pledge millions every year.

Renowned "Blue Ocean" strategy guru Professor W. Chan Kim, who two months ago spoke before state leaders in Kota Kinabalu, suggested that Sabah take advantage of its large tracts of rainforest and vast natural resources by promoting itself as the "garden for the world".

"Rather than exploit the natural resources God has given us, we need to conserve them and attract the world to us and make more income, raise the people's standard of living and eradicate poverty," Kim had told his audience.

Sabah, which has 1.4 million ha of its land planted with oil palm, also stands to gain from power generated from biomass, fitting into the National Green Technology Policy that clearly states the need to tap into renewable resources.

The government also needs to speed up construction of a 300MW gas-powered plant in Kimanis, as more questions are raised on the government's decision to build a 500km gas pipeline to Petronas' liquefied natural gas plant in Bintulu, Sarawak, eventually feeding it a resource that comes from waters off Sabah.

Green Surf, a coalition of five non-governmental organisations, including World Wide Fund for Nature (WWF) Malaysia, says a coal-fired plant should be "put to rest" as it goes against government commitments.

The coalition also claims that independent power producers in Sabah are running below efficiency, leading to power cuts and that SESB must first solve this issue before even looking at any other options.

"The environment was not a major concern in the past and climate change was not even an issue. Now we know better. So, let's do the right thing for Sabah's future," WWF Malaysia Borneo programme chief technical officer Dr Rahimatsah Amat says.

If Green Surf's signature campaign and citizens writing to the prime minister's 1Malaysia blog expressing their deep concern over the coal-fired plant can be taken as indicators of protest, it is now in the hands of policymakers to walk the talk and do the right thing for Sabah.

A Day in the Life of A Bajau Laut

A Bajau Laut woman, with two sons in tow, arrives at a jetty
with her catch of fresh slipper lobsters and stingray. She negotiates with
a cook and sells each lobster for RM8. She manages to sell three lobsters.

A dive resort worker showing the freshly caught slipper lobsters.

The negotiation process.

The Bajau Laut are a sea-faring group of people who navigate their way in waters off the east coast of Sabah and southern Philippines. This Bajau Laut woman had just caught slipper lobsters and stingray, and sold some of her catch to a budget dive centre in Mabul Island, just 20 minutes away by boat from world renowned Sipadan Island.

She seemed content after selling her catch, and paddled away.

Return to Penang

Many years ago, in June 1993, I hopped on a plane to travel to Universiti Sains Malaysia in Penang. It was a new phase in my life, and at 19-and-a-half then, I was so excited about going off to university, to take up a degree in Mass Communications. I dare say the four years I spent there were the best in my life. I remember everything: jogs at the lake, long walks under the steaming rays of the sun to the Mass Comm school, typewriters (yes, I am that old!), waiting for friends at the bus stop to go for an outing to Komtar, rude Yellow Bus drivers, yummy food, late night chats and the joy of receiving letters from friends back home.

I returned to Penang a few days ago, and this time, I was there at the invitation of the Mass Comm school, to sit in as a panel member at their International Communication and Environment Conference. 16 years ago, a USM bus picked us up from the Bayan Lepas Airport, this time, a Perdana ferried me to Batu Ferringi for the conference. I met ex-lecturers who didn't recognise me cause I have changed, they say. There was a conference dinner on campus, but it was almost dark by the time we got there. It's changed a lot, I've changed over the years, but the memories remain.

On the last day, I went to Georgetown and the Chowrasta Market to pick up some pickles (jeruk), and the market seemed a lot smaller compared to before. I managed to have some pesembur in Padang Kota Lama, and then I took a Rapid Penang bus back to the hotel. Trust me, the buses have improved a lot! The drivers are so courteous, and buses run on time.

I am glad I had this one chance to return to Penang. Thank you, dear lecturers, for teaching me, thank you Penang and USM for the memories, thank you my friends who made university life the best.

Taking Stock

Wow, I can't believe its been 3 weeks since my last posting! Been doing this, that, this, that, excuses, excuses, excuses! I am sure you know exactly what I am saying, cause I bet almost everyone is busy with something :)

Three days ago on 3rd December, I celebrated my 36th birthday. On a short flight back from Sandakan to Kota Kinabalu that same morning after an assignment, I tried to gather my thoughts on what has happened in the past year, and the many, many years I have lived on this planet with six-and-a-half-billion others. I've had my ups and downs in the past year, some which have left me questioning myself, others which have made me a stronger person.

But there is one thing I have decided on, and which I hope I will stick to: I want to be a better person. By better person, I mean I want to be a better friend, daughter, sister and hopefully citizen. I have to stop getting "angry" and "irritated" at the slightest things, and look at things through a different scope. I have to understand that not everyone will live up to my expectations. Motorists will still drive at 50km per hour on the right lane when I use Tuaran Road to get to work, people won't say thank you, people will tell lies, a friend I was once very close to has her own life now, most flights will have turbulence whether I like it or not, Malaysian public toilets will remain dirty, broadband connection sucks, etc. So instead of getting annoyed at everything, I will let it be. I will take a deep breath and move on. And live for today. Tomorrow is another day, there is no reason to start getting worried about what tomorrow will bring. Its time to be fair to myself.

There are many things I am thankful for. I am not hungry, I don't live in a shack, I have water and electricity supply, a nice car, enough clothes, a chance to travel and a number of awards on my shelf (well, actually they are still in the store room :D). But above all, I have friends and family who have never stopped supporting me. Dad who never fails to tell me how proud he is of me and my siblings, a friend who always gives me a hug each time we meet (its you Zan!), a soul mate who knows when to leave me alone, and when to make me smile.

And as I take stock of life, I hope God blesses you the way I have been blessed :)

Vested Interests

I am sitting here wondering about people with vested interests, and how they push their agendas. They dont care if what they are doing hurts others in any way. All they care about is filling their own pockets. Or making people close to them rich. "Let the others suffer" is probably their motto.

Then there are those who kiss-ass, or in the words of a colleague "buritokrasi." My colleague, based on his Facebook update, is annoyed that there are people out there who are getting away with murder, and are being rewarded with perks, while he continues to slog.

Familiar?